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"Love is a Friendship on Fire"

All of us spend our days & our nights looking for love. We dedicate our lives to find someone who is as compatible with you as yourself. To find someone who makes us feel comfortable in our own skin, let us lash out with our true selves, without feeling any remorse in doing so. Some of us find it right away &nd some of us die trying.

I feel like i've died trying.

I'm a lover &nd a fighter. More so a lover. All i want is for someone to give me as much love as i give them. Someone who will call me their everything as i do them. Someone who will look into my eyes, see the sparks that they ignite, &nd see that myy heart is true &nd loyal to them. Someone who i can trust with everything thats on my mind, &nd to trust them N0T to judge me for my thoughts. Someone who hold me so close to their body as if they wanted us to transform into one.

I've been thru my share of relationships, my share of boyfriends, &nd my share of flings. I've noticed that i trust thee ones who hurt me &nd ignore the ones that love me. From day one, I tried to show them that I CAN BE A GIRLFRIEND. That i'm THAT woman. That i'm THAT person. But the moree i pushedd it on them, thee moree i pushed them away. The more i showed them my feelings the more vulnerable i became &nd the moree pain i felt. How can sumbody really NOT wanna be with someone like me?

Then it hit me.

Not only must you build a friendship first but you must love yourself. Everything in the past doesnt matter anymore once you found the second half to your heart. All the hurt &nd pain that was caused, should stay in the relationship where all the hurt &nd pain derived. You CANT trusst everybody but if you walk around TRUSTING NOBODY, noone will ever want to get close to you. Noone will ever think that you are ready to be good enough for anybody. Dont let what other people do to you carry into the new relationships you have with people. You gotta make Y0U feel like Y0U are worth something.

Although it helps to have someone there boosting your self esteem &nd self confidence, you must believe in your heart that you are worth something. Because noone will ever think that you aree unless you trust it first.